Time heals?

About Time...

I can't believe it has been just over 3 years since I wrote my last and first post..mmmm

I have decided that the only way I can make this journey happen is to have a blog and that I write on it all the time, like daily. I have lived my life in chronic pain and now at 43 my body is at crisis point and it would be fair to say if I don't do something I will die, that is not an option when I have a beautiful family that I care for deeply.

I have started my plan at looking at my health holistically - why, well I am incredibly overweight for my height. The last time I jumped on some scales was a long time ago and I just know I am overweight as I don't fit any of my clothes and I live in tights and stretchy jeans - it sucks. Summer is around the corner and I promised myself a year ago that I wouldn't have another summer of feeling like a beached whale and tugging at my clothes every 5 seconds. The only way this was all going to get through my thick skull was for my body to literally scream at me in pain, in sadness and it has stripped me of everything I used to be... even my intimacy (what a stupid word) basically sex is a long forgotten thing buried in my past.

I don't know how this blog thing works, I assume it's private, maybe not I don't really care to be honest. I just want to do this for me and I want it to be a record of my journey. So in terms of the weight, I have to meet with with a Health Coach that is going to help me eat clean and healthy and get this weight off. I don't want to be on any fad diet I want this to last and be off forever. I am not sure if I am trying too hard and doing everything at once but all this supposed 'social smoking' that I do has to stop too. I am trying to do the Stoptober, well it starts tomorrow. I guess I will try my best and aim to be a good role model to my daughter.

The big thing that has to an is going to change is my back pain. I have started on an intensive programme for my back which initially take 12 weeks, twice a week. It has to be done because I cannot keep going with this debilitating pain. I am feeling positive and that has to be a good thing.

There is another aspect of my journey and that is something that I won't talk about yet, not until I figure out how private this journal/blog actually is!

Ciao
Poppy

The Beginning

Well I decided that I would start a book. I guess it's the start of a dream that I have had to write a book, this just might help me get closer to that goal. It's all about time really and being able to sit down and write. I have to say I have no idea how this all works. I am just going to write, get it all out on the page, after all isn't that what writing is all about? I have had it rough in terms of my health over the years, but this is not a self pity fest. This is hopefully my forum for healing.